The Rock Bottom



I’m exhausted. I’ve been at this for months and I’ve got nothing to show for it. I’ve hit The Rock Bottom. No one warned me about how draining this all would be. I thought for sure the hardest part was going to be the initial break from work— I couldn’t have been more wrong. The stress of waiting for the opportunity that’s going to pull me out of this has been relentless, and I’ve finally given up hope that there’s anything out there.

Every day, I wake up and I do the same thing I’ve been doing for months, unsure of how to break the cycle. I occasionally go the library or a coffee shop because by now it’s clear that if I don’t get out of the house I’ll go crazy. But no matter where I go or what I do, I feel trapped. There’s nothing anyone can say or do to get me out of this, so I’ve just become numb to it all.

I’ll get a call or two from a recruiter or potential employer from time-to-time, but I’m just not in good shape. I don’t feel like I put my best foot forward, which, of course, makes everything worse. The light at the end of the tunnel disappears as quickly as it showed up. I’m left with the dreaded radio silence after my initial conversations. I don’t remember ever feeling as down as I do right now. I’m just giving up. I can’t do this.

What you may be feeling

  • Despondent

  • Numb

  • Exhausted


  • Withdrawing into yourself

  • Not seeking help from professionals

Chris Rudnicki